During a cycle of growth from September 25, 2014, the Spirit brought to mind how the challenge I was facing was an inclination to long for something past. We see that it is common for man to cast a favorable light upon something being memorialized. The statues of a hero are often made to enhance perceived qualities. There is a tendency to idealize that which is being memorialized.
I thought of how the thing that I was longing for only had value within a moment of time in my past experience. It did not bear out as I had expected over time. But in a given moment of time, it seemed ideal. I thought of how this was like an encapsulated bubble in time in which it seemed as if I was experiencing my desired outcome. The fact that I found myself longing for this testifies against that idealized memorial. It lacked power to be sustained. It sprang up and quickly faded away like the glory of grass.
The Spirit helped me identify the pattern of deception seen in the way Satan suggests we can go back and reconstruct these bubbles (moments in time) to relive them or to attempt to live in them. For Adam, his first bubble was his recollection of walking with God in the Garden and having fellowship with Him and His angels as the heavens were open to him at that time. But after the fall, this experience had been sealed off from him.
Reflecting upon this, I drew out the diagram shown here. I first drew the horizontal timeline. I saw how these bubbles were our common experience before coming into covenant with God. The things we cherished never lasted and we knew no consistency in this dimension of darkness.
I then noticed how God provides new experiences for us beginning with the SEAL of the Spirit and the laying of the foundation of Truth in our hearts by instruction from His holy apostles. These new experiences are not bubbles but are daily sustained by Him as we keep covenant with Him.
I drew these above the timeline because I used the timeline to show experiences in His kingdom of Light above the timeline and our experience in the kingdom of darkness below. I marked this out with the vertical line which also marks out the distinction between our life before covenant (BC) and our life of faith after our adoption (AA).
As the drawing notes, this transition begins with the SEAL and our being instructed in the apostles doctrine. We see this in 1 Peter 1:2, Acts 2:42, and Eph 1:13.
As we continue in covenant with God in Christ, we see that our expectations shift to Christ and that we receive daily substance of our hope in Him. These are very different experiences from that which we found in darkness. I drew these new experiences as continuations in time which lead to the Door of His Throne (Christ) which marks our being received back into Him (B=B). That which was initiated by Him within His own Bosom is sustained by Him through Christ and is brought to completion by Him to be received back into His own Bosom with the increase of Christ seen in those tokens provided for our faith to live in this dark dimension.
This also marks the end of darkness, time, and death (the final curse to be removed.)
As I drew that out, I was reflecting on something being shared by Chief Apostle Eric in last week's assembly. The river of life flows forth from the roots of the tree of life which is for the healing of the nations.
I noticed how my drawing of the new experiences we gain in Christ looked like roots of a tree (sideways). I then drew the trunk and branches to the right which is what the Spirit brought to mind in connection with what had been stewarded in assembly. We see the roots of truth being formed within our hearts now in this time of testing and how it is from these experiences (roots) that we bring forth charity for the strengthening of His Body. This will also being carried forward perpetually within us as we go about our Father's business (first in us and then through us without end). Praise God!
I then noticed also how we had settled into a comfort zone while in darkness and how this carries over with our inclinations after coming into covenant. We see this is part of the transition that the the Spirit assists us through as our comfort zones fade with each successful cycle of growth while our confidence in Christ increases. I drew this near the center of the timeline.
Chief Teacher Maria had a few notes I wanted to add:
What the Spirit lifted out to me was that when experience met outcome (bubbles A,B, & C), these are often described as defining moments in time. The reason we yearn to return to them is that they mimic the “permanence” we were designed for, had once experienced in the bosom of the Father prior to our experience here, and desire to return to.
The desire for permanence explains in part why there is a such a tremendous draw to Satan’s suggestion that we go back to reconstruct those bubbles (why we are drawn by to what appear to be defining moments).
Interestingly, these defining moments, when desire met expectation are often also described as when it seemed that “time stood still”. And then an agony is experienced when that moment seems “gone forever”. The reconstruction of bubbles offer (false promise) permanence, but only God can give us these tokens now from the roots of Christ as each token is connected to Him and is carried on in Him forever. Thank you again for providing this opportunity for labor.
The bubbles created by Satan also serve as false anchors in that we’re drawn back to what they offer to take another look at their potential. These false anchors rival the true anchor we have in the bosom of the Father. The tokens of Christ are designed for us to go back to them to resource the knowledge of Christ for confidence.
(This brought to my mind how there is a suggestion to project forward with those things which were past... projecting a false hope to alleviate present concern.)
She continued on: The hope there is that the things we are facing today were already tested in the past and we can trust that experience now to tell the truth, to be as an unwavering guard for us now in this present time when there might be uncertainty.
Concerning the comfort zone vs confidence section of the diagram, she shared: Contact with the roots of Christ brings confidence as hope is given substance. Satan seeks to reestablish contact with those former bubbles to confuse the mind with former associations. The word "nostalgia” comes to mind again to describe a familiarity/sentimentality with events and people the mind is drawn back to.
The Lord has drawn me back to this diagram in multiple cycles of growth to further my understanding and make additional connections. I wanted to write this up and share these notes and this diagram for your edification as well.